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Patapon life.

Finals na nga pala namin, pero eto ulit ako muling mag ba-blog kahit konti tungkol sa buhay ko. Kita mo naman sana nagrereview ako ngayon kesa ganto. Ewan ko, feeling ko patapon lahat ng ginagawa ko ngayon. As in patapon. Sa pag aaral, ang sobrang petiks ko. Namimiss ko yung dating ako na kung paano mag aral ng mabuti. Alam ko di pa talaga ako nakakapag adjust. Ang hirapp, sobrang hirap na hirap na ko. Ewan ko ba kung bakit hindi ko magawa mag aral ng mabuti dito. Hinahanap ko lagi yung dati kung saan ako nag aaral eah. Hirap nga naman ohh. Pero de, ang point ko lang dito eah patapon talaga lahat ng ginagawa ko ngayon. Teka, bakit ko ba nilalahat, eah ‘tong pag aaral lang nga pala tong nirereklamo ko ngayon. Siguro nabigla na lang din ako sa college. Di ako naging handa sa totoo lang. Ibang iba kasi eah. Kulang ako sa paghahanda. Hindi ako nakaipon para sa sarili ko. (Hindi literal na ipon ng pera ha. Basta yung paghahanda.) Nabigla lang talaga ako at yung pagkabigla ko, nagtuloy tuloy hanggang sa natamad na ko na ang dami kong hinahanap dito na nasa sa amin. Alam ko kapag nagpatuloy pa ko dito sa Manila, hindi ko magagawang mag aral ng mabuti. Kasi ang nangyayari sakin dito, tuwing nandito ko sa Manila, eah lagi ko na lang hinihintay yung araw na uuwi ako ng Bataan, kasi parang ang nagiging kasiyahan ko na lang eah yung pag uwi ko ng Bataan. Tapos kapag nasa Bataan ako, natatamad na kong bumalik ng manila tapos may halong lungkot pa yon. Ang dami kong dahilan pero hindi ko ma type lahat kasi nalilito na din tong utak ko. Alam ko mas maraming opportunities dito, pero alam ko sa sarili ko din na di ako makakapag aral ng maayos dito gawa ng mga dahilan ko. At ito, napagdesisyunan ko na babalik na lang ako ng Bataan, at least don alam ko na makakapag aral ako ng mabuti. Lalo na’t nasa tabi ko na ulit yung mama ko. Sige na, sabihin na nating mama’s girl ako. Totoo naman din. Yayyy! Pero yun nga, malamang at sa malamang irreg student ang dating ko ng 2nd sem. Palit ng University, Palit din ng course. Ang dami kong pinag daanan bago mabuo ‘tong desisyon na to. Ang dami kong pinaglaanan bago mabuo ‘tong desisyon na to. Ang dami ko pang pagdadaanan at haharapin pagkatapos kong gawin ‘tong desisyon na to. Lord, guide me. Alam ko po medyo nalayo ako sa inyo ngayon dahil di ko man lang magawang magsimba kapag nandito ko sa Manila. Lord sorry po ha, kung sinukuan ko ‘to. Alam ko naman pong naiintindihan niyo po ako. Pero eto, sa pag dedesisyon ko po na to, gabayan niyo po ako Lord. Salamat po ng maraming marami as in sagad sagadddd.

I kinda miss the bond we shared. I mean, who wouldn’t miss that comfortable feeling with a person? Where we could talk for hours about everything, anything, and not have a problem with the silence in the middle. Can’t forget all the ridiculous stuff we did. Stupid or not, everything was just so fun. Endless nights, real talks, the “remember whens”, I remember it all. And it’s funny what life does, how it could just give you things and take it away so soon. I really can’t get it out of my head that you grow distant from people and that good things come to an end sooner or later. But along the way, I learned one good thing about life; it goes on, you just gotta pick yourself up and learn to keep up.
Don’t judge me. You can’t handle half of what I’ve dealt with. There’s a reason I do the things I do, there’s a reason I am who I am.

If you know someone who’s depressed, please resolve never to ask them why. Depression isn’t a straightforward response to a bad situation; depression just is, like the weather.

Try to understand the blackness, lethargy, hopelessness, and loneliness they’re going through. Be there for them when they come through the other side. It’s hard to be a friend to someone who’s depressed, but it is one of the kindest, noblest, and best things you will ever do.

Stephen Fry (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

I hate that feeling when you’re not necessarily sad, but you just feel really empty and every little thing gets to you and everyone that talks to you makes you angry and you want to punch everyone in the face

If you want to forget something or someone, never hate it, or never hate him/her. Everything and everyone that you hate is engraved upon your heart; if you want to let go of something, if you want to forget, you cannot hate.
C. JoyBell C. (via kushandwizdom)
Please be careful with me. Sometimes I just get sad and I don’t know why. I’m sorry.
I am so sorry to all the people I hurt while I was hurting.

(via tralasciare)

Often wish I could go back to anyone I knew between the ages of 10 and 24 and say this.

(via johnskylar)